I have created these seven steps to help me officially move on with my life.

Seven Steps to Moving - On

1. I will admit I am powerless when it comes to him.
2. I will immediately stop and delete all forms of communication (via phone and internet).
3. I will immediately stop internet stalking him.
4. I will trash all items related to him.
5. I will no longer mention or think of him.
6. I will rediscover myself without him.
7. I will not allow him to come back into my life.

Once I have successfully completed these seven steps, I know that I can then really move on with my life. Happy Moving-On!

I hate when I find something out that is just going to break my heart even more.  And today I did.  I'm trying to hold back the tears but I can't ...

So the other day, I asked Richard* if he ever liked me, out of curiosity.  I realized that Richard is like all other guys I've ever met (that's probably why I'm through with them).  Richard replies by asking me why all of the sudden I ask this question.  And I tell him a lie because why would I tell him the truth.  I give him two options, of course, option A - no or option B - yes. And behind these two options I give him my theories.  Option A - no and that's why he left me hanging or option B - yes, but he eventually thought it out and realized that I was too good for him.  Now, all he needed to do was answer the simply question but he had to make everything complicated by saying, "Yes, I liked you but I knew it wasn't going to work out ..." Blah-blah-blah-blah-blah.

I seriously hate it when guys say "I knew it wasn't going to work out" like they're psychic or something.  Let me tell you something mister ... I have psychic abilities too and you know what they're telling me, you're going to be sorry.  I didn't really say that but in the back of my mind that's what I was thinking.

I've come to realize that men will always be like that ... they think they can predict the future, if a relationship is going to work or not but honestly, a woman always has the upper-hand because they know that that man will always look back and regret it.  That's the truth.  And yes, the truth hurts.

I told him that I didn't care for his reason; all his reason did was make me feel worst like I did something wrong again and that's when it hit me, every guy that I've been with (slept with, shared mutual feelings, pursued, whatnot) all end up being the same guy in the end -- a jerk who likes to make himself feel better by belittling me.

I mean take Mark (the so-called love of my life) -- a year of our relationship and all he did was degrade me and when I think back on it, I can't believe I let him treat me like I was worthless.  And then there's my best guy friend who let his crazy girlfriend believe that I was trying to steal him ... oh, I got some nasty text messages and some evil glares whenever she was around and not once did he stick up for me or our friendship.  And take Mark number two, what did he do, basically pursued me then left me hanging to go back to his ex-girlfriend and then told me that we could all be friends (three is really a crowd) and then he ends up spreading rumors and telling lies and convinces his (girl)friend that I was trying to steal him, oh please mister, you're a loser ... how many times do I have to tell you that before it's engrained in your pea-size brain, and then there's Richard (who's really name isn't Richard but I like to call him that because he reminds me of a Richard ... get it ;) ), who basically had something real and tangible with me and then changed his mind (and I wouldn't have mind if he had just said, I change my mind, let's just be friends) and then made everything complicated by telling me it was all my fault and then ignoring me and pretending like I wasn't a person.

Yeah, all jerks.

But it's okay because what I realized is that even though all these people have screwed me over, bruised me, and disappointed me, I'm still nice to them at the end of the day; I still treat them like a human being because I've learned that no matter how vicious people are to you, no matter how many times they screw you over, no matter how hurt you feel by them, they're still human and they, too, have feelings.

And in the end, they'll regret the things they've done to you ...